I feel like crawling out of my skin today. I dont know if its the weather, if its life, or just pure urgh! I hate not having a job. I’ve been out of work now for three weeks. The slowest three weeks of my life. I actually had a job for about four days and not being payed by some crazy women is not a fun way to waste some of my time. Im just struggling. Its hard because I do have rent, I dont have a job. I dont even have a bank account right now. Its a huge struggle in my faith. I just want to cry, scream throw something anything. Its like I’m a big room and all I see are closed doors and not a opened window in sight. Hell there isnt even a rock for me to break a window if I wanted to. I need a blessing. I need a miracle. I need help! With no money, no car, and soon (God forbid) no home, I can feel the pressures of everything breaking me down. I cant sleep, can barely eat, my ear is now hurting badly, its just about to make me crack.

 

Maybe I need to crack, maybe thats the issue. Maybe thats the problem. I’m not sure. All I know is that it hurts beyond belief.