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It says in Psalms that life and death are in the power of the tongue. When I was little I always thought that it meant that a king, for example, could sentence someone to death but just speaking it. Now as I get older I see more and more that its so much more in depth then what it looks like.
Life and death is in the power of the tongue. What you say, what you speak has the power to shatter someones life. It can kill someones identity. It can destroy everything that they had worked for. For example say that some one makes a decision and you think you know why they did. You get all the angles in your head worked out so you know that you know. So you tell others that, that has to be why they made that decision.
But, what if your wrong? What if that decision was not based on anything you could have possibly thought about. Who knows everything another person thinks about or goes through? Who knows why anyone does anything… So why?
Why do you say anything?
Why do you make things up?
Why do you always think your right?
See.. Life and death is in the tongue. But, you saying what you say about others it not only hurts them, but it the long run the truth comes out. And when the truth doesn’t match what you proclaimed from the mountain tops, you look like an idiot. Your death came out of your own mouth.
I got on Itunes today to find some more podcast to listen to. I’m really enjoying branching out of my home church and seeing what God is doing in different places. So I running through some of the names, some I know, some I dont, when I feel like I had been blind sided.
See one of the names I found, I knew. One of the pastors I saw, rocked me a bit. When I was younger, way younger, my father worked for a pastor of a rather large church (ref. History blog). Needless to say that was the name I saw. I have to admit the first thought that went through my mind was this has to be a joke. Theres no way. I was ticked, hurt, confused. I know that I was young when everything happened but, it still effected alot of my life and my ideas on “Christian’s” as I and my family saw them. I couldn’t understand why anyone would a) let him teach again b) would listen. I mean after all he DID what he DID.
But, it brought me back to what I was being showed all day today. Grace. The importance of Grace. Today was a huge stretchingin that part of my life. It seemed to be incident after incident that just required more and more grace from me. Let me tell you, it sucked. It started with sitting at the same place for almost two hours, driving to Sullivan’s with no air in my car but still waiting when twenty people crossed the road just to turn around in the middle of the street to go back to the car! To driving past the same spot to pick someone up and them not be there. Grace was so the word of the day.
So it brings me back to Mr. Pastor, as where going to call him, yea he did some stupid things. Yes he totally shook my whole world and I’m sure added more gaps in my relationship with God than did good at the time. Does that mean he should be totally band from ever speaking Gods word? Does that mean that God took his calling away? Does that mean that we should just shun him and punish him forever for his mistake?
What if some one did that to you?
Its funny I kept thinking about this week and how “hard” its been. There is so much going on in my life that some times I feel like I’m on a rollercoaster that I cant get off of. Its not fun.
Its even funnier that now as I’m writing the thought, “how hard has it really been” keeps playing in my head. I’m breathing, I’m living, I’m laughing!
I got to pray to night with an amazing group of people that I’m learning more and more about every week. That I am see God move in us in so many ways that its mind-blowing! I would have never thought that this week would have started hard and ended happy! Its all about, focus. I think sometimes its so much easier for me to focus on all the ups and downs and what is changing always in my life, and not focus on the unchanging, rooted things in my life. God.
I think it started when I was trying to be more transparent, its turned in to whinny! I feel like to be transparent I needed to emotionally vomit on whom ever was asking ‘hows your day’. Not once did I capture my thoughts and claim ‘its amazing, God is great!’. No it was a complaint about this, a worry about that, a “I know God has it, but..”. There so be no but after that statement! How could I just slap God in the face like that and be like God has it but, I dont really trust Him to do anything.
Really who am I? Who gave me the right to question God, who gave me the right to lack in faith. Not I, Not God, Not Anyone!
Its all about your thoughts where are they? What are they focused on? Where are they at??
When was the last time you checked yourself? Its been a long while for me.
